This morning I talked to Steve for a few hours till my mom found out I was on the computer...

 

This afternoon I goofed off... read, wrote, did nothing....

 

This evening... I cleaned and cleaned and cleaned...

 

Tonight... I sneak an entry for you all to read... My grams isn't doing well or worse... I don't know what the deal is... all I know is the quicker the pain is gone the better... I honestly don't even want to have christmas without her... it won't be the same... Steve cheered me up though... he said that it's hard but it will get better and he wishes he was here... I say it's hard to come to the realization that she's gone... but it's the memories that will live forever... I'm going to name one of my daughters after her... if steve and i last as long as we hope... we're gonna name one of our other daughters after his grandmother....

 

Well.... don't wanna get caught so...

 

More tomorrow (if i can sneak it...)....